|Pi Add with one of the little girls she cares for.|
|and older picture of Pi Add|
Tonight some of our team baked cookies with some of the older Thai girls that we've befriended in the community. While they did that, the rest of us stayed out back to play and distract the rest of the kids. Well while we were out there one of the older ladies in the community who takes care of several of the girls and kids we've befriended came up and had me sit down next to her. She had a little girl named Bon sit on my lap and said, "You take her." "Excuse me?!" She said, "You like her? You take her. She no have mama, no papa. You take her." I felt as though my very breath was being taken away from me and all I could get out was a dumbfounded, "I cannot." She said, "You no like her?" Still in disbelief, "No I love her, I love Bon but I cannot take. I'm just a dekdek (Thai word for "child"). I cannot." And before I threw up on her, I left and went up stairs so I could breathe. On the off chance that she misunderstood and thought I was a part of the Asia Center Foundation, which is a YWAM ministry just a couple doors down from us that does take in children, I went back down and tried to sort it out with her. I went to her house and I sat down with her and asked if she thought I was from Asia Center Foundation but she had never heard of it. So I asked her if she want me to be Bon's new mama and she said, "Yes you take Bon. I give you."
|This is Bon.|
I have contacted Asia Center Foundation and made them aware of what's happened and what's going on. My biggest concern right now, apart from the abuse, is that the woman who cares for her would give her away to anyone. If I would have said yes, I'd have a child with me right now! What happens if the wrong person comes along and takes her to do only God knows what to her?! And if Asia Center Foundation won't take her then the Lord and I are going to have a big chat because something has to be done. I don't believe, right now, I'm the one to take her but I sure as heck would be committed to finding her an amazing home!
Heavy, heavy, heavy stuff. That's all I can say......Lord, O Lord does justice have a face! I'm afraid of this being something that I could potentially regret for the rest of my life. But I know that I just have to keep seeking God, doing what I can, and He'll show me what to do and give me strength to do it. I know that His peace walks hand in hand with His will...I'm counting on it.
That's been the biggest thing I've learned here in Phuket and it's that justice has a face. Statistics are becoming stories and facts are becoming faces. There's no turning back now....not ever. I'm a wicked person if I abandon all that I've been shown; if I allow myself to forget.
I think back to that night that God convicted me about injustice; how I had heard about modern-day slavery and sex slavery for so long and had done nothing; when He showed me the faces of all the women my apathy had raped. I think back to that very moment when the weight of conviction, profound sorrow and fear was crashing down on me like the weight of a waterfall pouring down on me. In that moment I had one brief second of hesitation where I said to God, "God, this isn't my mission field." And I'll never forget the fear of God that came upon me when He said, "It is now." Those words become more true everyday because "it is now."